Spinning in My Room:
Nothing Left to Say - Richard Marx

Wanted to talk crap but happened to blog hop before this and well..
Read this blog of an ex-senior, feel kinda sad for her.
Close friends that promised to last, yet all that was is just a promise broken.
JC life doesnt change people, people just change over time. Slight changes that usually go unnoticed, and when you finally notice it, it's too late to go back. Nothing is forever - except for God.

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Read this article on stress. It says that people who are stressed usually suffer from sever depression and all. I dont. Do i ? And people who're stressed out usually get outbreaks often. Which i do. So am i ?

*Sigh*

I'm thankful for mr cho. Yes. I'm sorry for breaking down like that on thursday.

"You need friends. All you need is a few you can talk to and relate to. The rest ? Just get rid of them"

I have friends ? Dont i ? Maybe not. Such is a feeling of deja vu.

How long ago is it that i felt so insecure about myself that i ended up crying ? About 6 months back i guess. I dont know. But masks just have to come off someday. But not yet. Sometimes, it not that one is unwilling to do that, just that, it cant be done yet.

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Oh and i'm officially banned from surfing/blogging/chatting on "schooling day eve". Not that i really mind. Was less sever that what i was planning to do.

Poonz and Chin think too highly of me.

"Shuyun is capable of getting A1 for her maths. She has the potential to do much better."

Potential. What is potential anyway. Hidden talents ? Stored energy ? Resources untapped on ? But even a gas cylinder needs a spark before the true power of it is unleashed. I want that spark to come into my life and push me further. 10 points for prelims. Impossible ? Maybe.

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Mum agreed to let me continue the cip work at CSC. Yes am elated. And she also agreed to let me go for blood donations. Wahaahaha. Very very happy. Always thought she wont agree. If possible i wont be asking my dad since he always feel that "i'm doing things coz of my friends". Like when i said i wanted to continue the cip work, he felt that i was just trying to please them. Like is he even my dad ?

I'm like so. Urgh. Speechless.

I dont think i'm at all posuer nor am i a hypocritic. I wont do things just so people will be peleased. I do things the way i think is the best.

Hold on to the rock of individualism and resist the current of the crowd.

Anyway, back to point. I still dont know where to go for the bloody affair (no pun intended). So if you know/is interested in going too, poke/sms/tag me. Who needs so much blood anyway.

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When something's come and gone
What good is holdin' on?
Why waste tomorrow chasin' yesterday?
I part my lips to speak
But the words are out of reach
I guess that really means
There's nothin' left to say